Shieldmaiden's musings

I sang of sky

2006-12-15T13:10:00.000-08:00

I sang of sky, I sang of sea,
I sang of birds in yonder tree
I sang of leaves that fell like rain,
I sang of One, though sinless, slain.

I sang of golden harvest time,
I sang of pumpkins in their prime
I sang of air that crisply blew,
Of warm sunshine, frost and dew.

I sang of starlight, moon at night,
Of faith that did not run on sight.
Of life, once dark and sightless be;
Of Light, which found, and chose out me.

YES!!!

2006-09-01T14:41:00.000-07:00

the html tag worked. Praise God! w00t w00t

;)

Edited....

2006-09-01T14:38:00.000-07:00

I finally figured out how to add the title in, thank God!!!!! LOL... i guess I am just figuring this blog out. With all the forums and websites I go on, I hardly have time for this blog. I'm ashamed....

but anyway, that's no excuse. Maybe I have too many forums.

I finished a journal book (in one month!!!) and started up a new one. I'm glad about that...... that's the fastest i ever finished up a journal. Maybe writing it TO someone makes all the difference. :D

That's all for now.

God bless,

shieldmaiden

just trying out HTML tags, LOL. Let's see how this works out....

2006-08-27T14:40:00.000-07:00

Today is raining. I always think rainy days are good for shopping, or sleeping, or reading, or writing. =P

Today is no exception. I wish i could go to a bookstore. But i can't. i'm glad we have a lot of books. So i'm not bored.

2006-08-10T13:40:00.000-07:00

ok, i was looking over my blog. I really like that black template/background.....it looks really really cool. =D

it matches with my identity. LOL

Back to algebra.....algebra sucks......i only say that cuz i'm no good at it.

2006-08-10T13:38:00.000-07:00

A lot of my friends are going thru trials and hardships right now.

I need to pray for them. But my heart aches for them, anyway.

What can i do? Just be a friend to them.....

Reminds me of the Good Samaritan. We had a sunday school lesson on it once. I will always remember that.

God bless,
shieldmaiden

2006-08-05T15:15:00.001-07:00

Ahhhhhh i haven't been here for a long long while. Life is busy.....really busy. i'm sorry i haven't posted anything for a while.

ok i checked out Lord of the Rings.....again. I really love those books, and i think they are my faves. ;)

some of my friends say boooorrrriiiinnnngggg whenever i start talking about it, though. It's not very polite, actually...... :)

i am on The Fellowship of the Ring.

someday i'm going to buy the 3, also the Hobbit. Then i can read it whenever i want. :) the hardcover edition is better than the softcover. It stays open better, if you see what i mean.

ok, love you all! I'll try to check in later. =D

2006-07-15T03:07:00.000-07:00

my teeth hurt......if anyone sees this please pray for me....... thanx a lot, i'll really appreciate it.

2006-07-15T01:52:00.000-07:00

Look, i have no idea what to do with myself. I'm sitting here at the computer because I'm suffering from insomnia. It's so frustrating. I'm leaving for camp but somehow I'll miss somebody for some reason. I just don't know why.

Part of the reason why I CAN'T sleep is because I'm lonely for someone, plus my teeth really hurt. Plus I'm leaving for camp in a few hours......a pretty long time actually. I need to talk to someone but there's no one to talk to. Sure I know GOD'S there but there are times when I need a person. I feel so alone right now....there's no one awake. The sun is rising......

I'll look forward to writing my youth pastor when I am in camp.

Peace.

2006-06-25T17:53:00.000-07:00

Sadly, I have a six/seven page test coming up. In English.

My youth pastor preached today. Gave me stuff to think about. And in Sunday School he said I should teach Sunday school. I know he was just joking, but THAT'S AN IDEA. Hmmmmmmm......... I'm so confused for some reason. [What do I want to do with the rest of my life? I believe if God wants me to do something, He'll open up a door for me.]

I wish I had a driver's liscence. Duh.

Back to homework now..... I AM STONED......

2006-06-23T21:47:00.000-07:00

oh, I forgot to say... God won't give up on us. He's there even when it feels like he isn't. And he'll be there, still even if we try to push him away.

God bless you all

Peace

2006-06-23T21:37:00.000-07:00

Lord, sometimes, only YOU see our tears. Only YOU can understand sometimes because of what you went through... for us.

2006-06-23T21:09:00.000-07:00

To all of you out there:

I'm praying for you guys. I don't know your situations or any problems you have, but I'm praying for you all. I may not know but God does, and he cares for all of you. He loves you.

Some of you may be looking for something. Some of you may be broken inside, but you don't know it. Some of you may be alone, with no friends. Some of you may have already given up on life.

But whatever it is, God understands. He wants you to get whole again. To see. To have a smile on your face again.

(Heavenly Father, you know these people. You see them everyday. You know some of them don't know you, but they NEED you. Father, all of us are sinners and we're not worthy to call you our Father. (Dad) But yet, you came down to earth, to sacrifice yourself to save us, because you loved us. And you are willing to call us your own. We are eternally straying away from you, but you always welcome us back. It's amazing.

And for those that are already Christians, and the 13 who were baptized on Sunday... help them grow nearer to you. The road ahead is not easy, but you will be at their side. And train them to use their weapons. (Word of God, faith) All of us are in a spiritual warfare. But with you as our Commander, we WILL SUCCEED. But we can't do it alone.

You know you can't leave us unless we push you away.

And the teens outside... they especially need your help. They are confused, searching for identity, and going through many phases. This is a dark time for them, Lord, as they tend to stray away. And for those who are already strayed far... bring them back.

And my friend who is mixed up in her views of religion. Help her. She is really confused. I'm not ready to tell her yet, Dad... she's way older than me. But you said we were supposed to be an example for the other believers... and not to let people look down on us because we are young.

There's so much more I want to add, but words are inadequate. I KNOW you understand, anyway.

In Jesus' name,

Amen)

God bless you everyone. If you have any questions... feel free to post a comment. I can listen to you.

S

2006-06-23T15:10:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...

What was that someone said? Eyes are the windows to souls? Yeah... I've noticed. :(

2006-06-23T14:32:00.000-07:00

My sleeping patterns are all out of wack.

I think there's a baptismal party today. I hope I'm right.

Yawn... I'm tired again. And I really should be studying...

2006-06-23T01:18:00.000-07:00

Speaking about Fiddler on the Roof...

there was a song that used to go... "Matchmaker, matchmaker, make me a match..."

I imagine that used to be scary. Not knowing who you were going to marry until they told you... and there was always a possibility that it would be someone old, ugly, uninteresting... stupid...

Like the girl who fell in love with a tailor. She was matched up with someone older than her dad. Now THAT is scary. It turned out she married the tailor... though the other guy was all pissed out about it. No, more than pissed out. PISSED OUTTTTT...

But every girl deserves to have a choice. Back then they had no say in the matter.

a few weeks back, someone made a remark about God being our matchmaker. I sure hope he is, because I've nearly botched it up several times. The people I pick are not the people HE picks.

*sigh*

2006-06-23T01:04:00.000-07:00

Earlier today, I was thinking about tradition. Tradition was a theme in "Fiddler on the Roof." (nice movie, I never got to watch all of it). They said without tradition, they are nothing. Or something to that effect.

Sometimes we pay too much attention to tradition in church, that we lose the point of it all. So what if someone comes in, smokin' like a chimney, comes in way late, and forgets to put the dollar for lunch??!!! (sorry... i borrowed that from someone's sermon) We should be glad they're there at all. SHEESH!!!!! Aren't those the people we're supposed to reach??!!!

(thanks to my pastor for preaching that sermon. I used to be a person like that. I see it now.)

Rant over.

Peace.

2006-06-22T07:40:00.000-07:00

HIDDEN BEHIND A MASK: Feelings

Christians, look around you. You may see the people you see every day. But have you ever wondered, "How many of those people are wearing a mask? How many of those people are actually broken behind that exterior?" Who are searching for something they cannot find? Their lives may be empty...

And those people who are really alone... they need someone too. They need a friend. When you see them... don't ignore them... try to be a friend to them. And sometimes though they might not be LOOKING for one... be a friend anyway. Don't give up on them... Someday they'll open up... and you'll be glad you were there for them.

I know... for I am/was both kinds of people. Some people never gave up on me. But... I still hide my feelings behind a mask. Pray for me guys... and some of you, thanks for never giving up on me.

NO ONE IS A LOSER IN GOD'S EYES

2006-06-21T19:56:00.000-07:00

LOL a funny thing that happened...

I was listening to some classical music on the computer. (AAAHHH) Then I clicked on someone's xanga. And that xanga had some sort of sound track. So I suddenly heard, "BOOM BANG RAP RAP BOOM..." etc... I shut off the sound real quick. It was kind of scary to suddenly hear that coming out of the speakers... and the classical music was still playing in the background!!! It sounded funny... another reason why I keep it muted most of the time.

I can't concentrate for some weird reason.

And I have had songs running through my head all day... "How many times, have I turned away. The number's the same, as the sand on the shores..."

For some strange reason the laptop is REALLY noisy today.

And this evening my nose started dripping blood... I don't mean to scare anyone. Weird whenever that happens. I thought it was over... I think it has something to do with the humidity.

Good night everyone

God bless

Peace

S

2006-06-21T19:39:00.000-07:00

oh and by the way, I enabled the blog so guests could post. I hope that works.

2006-06-21T19:36:00.000-07:00

*yawns* I'm so tired.

Remember guys, you need your sleep. Don't try to pull an all-nighter because it's bad for you. (I confess, I pulled one before church the next morning and I ALMOST fell asleep)

I didn't exactly pull one, but I woke up at 3 this morning. I couldn't sleep for some odd reason.

*yawns*

oh dear

to bed now, I guess...

2006-06-21T13:52:00.000-07:00

BAD COMPANY CORRUPTS GOOD CHARACTER

that's why I had to boot someone off my list. I dunno... the person made me really mad sometimes...

What was that someone said once? "It's easier to pull you (a Christian) down, but it is harder to pull someone (non Christian) up." I forgot who it was. But that person was right.

For some strange reason, MSN messenger is very popular in other countries.

I wonder why my blog doesn't appear in the "noticed blogs" list. Or in the newly updated blogs list. I thought I set it to appear out there. Hmmm...

"FOR THE WAGES OF SIN IS DEATH BUT THE GIFT OF GOD IS ETERNAL LIFE IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD." [Romans 6:23]

2006-06-21T13:42:00.000-07:00

Another LOTR pic. i have never watched the movies... but maybe someday. Someone thought it was from Star Wars. I like Star Wars but anyway...

I have to leave soon for someplace. i have a biology test this week. Pray for me guys!!!

Chemistry is even harder.

Still want to stick my tongue out at everyone... I'm acting really weird today.

i'm sleepy for some reason. Oh well, I got up too early. *sigh*

:P :P :P :P

2006-06-21T05:53:00.000-07:00

NO FEAR OF DEATH

2006-06-21T03:12:00.002-07:00

yeah... i love that song.

I keep it as a file on my screen so I won't forget it. I have a bad memory so I can barely remember stuff. (Except especially memoriable stuff...lol the farthest I can reach back to was when I was... uh... five) I can barely remember what I ate for dinner. i only know it was good. :D

Vampire stories: good or bad?

Well someone wrote one and sent it to me and asked me what I thought of it.

"Well written, but the subject matter............"

I can tell that the author read Lord of the Rings... i wonder how it ends.

I dunno... i wish it would turn out to be a story of redemption. Or something.

I was up at 4:00 AM this morning. I must be insane. But I couldn't sleep and I felt jumpy. o_O Someday on Friday mornings I should head for the Prayer meeting for the Insane. O_O

S

2006-06-21T03:12:00.000-07:00

Above all powers,
Above all kings.
Above all nature and all created things.
Above all wisdom, and all the ways of man,
You were here before the world began.

Above all kingdoms,
Above all thrones.
Above all wonders the world has ever known.
Above all wealth, and treasures of the earth,
There's no way to measure what you're worth.

Crucified...laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose, trampled to the ground...
You took the fall...and thought of me...

ABOVE ALL

2006-06-21T02:36:00.000-07:00

purpose...

With no purpose in life, how are people to continue living? We just exist... until we die. Then we are never seen again... there's no hope.

Christianity brings purpose. Gives people something to live for... also because we know where we're headed afterwards. It's not a deep dark bottomless pit... it's the light at the end of the tunnel. :D

I don't know how many people are reading this, but do you have a purpose in life? Do you know where you're headed?

s

2006-06-20T19:51:00.000-07:00

CHAIN EMAIL MESSAGES: AAAAAAAAAAARGH

Ever get a chain message? Probably. Whatever starts either has too much time on their hands or something.

[RANT]Some of them are nice. Except for the stupid thing on the end that says, "If you forward this on, you will have good luck for three years. If you DON'T forward this on, you will get bad luck for one year." I guess people send them on because they don't want to have bad luck. Give me a break, I don't believe in "luck". (There's no such thing as luck either, just so you know)

Before, that's why i sent them on. Until someone told me to stop. (Thank you, whoever you are :D ) Looking back, I wonder that I could have been so stupid as to believe in what they said, yeah right, send it on and you have good luck, don't send it and you have bad luck...

The STUPIDEST one I ever got was one that told me that if i didn't forward it on, my LOVE LIFE would suffer. Hey, WHOA!!!!!! Listen, my "love life" (and i have none) does NOT depend on a chain message!!! and how deep it goes does not depend on how many people I forward it to. I didn't forward it to anyone. Bleah.

There's also the kind that says, "If you don't forward this back to me, you're not my friend." or... "If you don't forward this back to me, then you're not a friend of Jesus..."

*blink*

DUH

the people who send that to me think they're annoying too. I tell them usually to delete them and pretend they've never got them. :P

OK, i'm typing this in at 4:00 AM. Because I can't get to sleep.

[/RANT]

Rant over.

Peace.

2006-06-20T18:19:00.000-07:00

I have a built in sound track.

before the throne of God above...

I'm on the computer and listening to a thunderstorm outside. I hope I don't get electrocuted.

2006-06-20T10:38:00.000-07:00

music has to come from the heart, at least that's what I think. No matter how WELL you play it, it's not going to matter unless you play it from the heart.

Believe me, I know... people can sense when you're not playing from the heart.

Also, if you're playing at a recital don't aim too high or you'll flunk altogether.

For example, a week ago I was playing in a recital. The last one was about 10 pages and I TRIED to play it from memory. I thought all would go well.

In fact, I couldn't.

Also... i hadn't prayed before... *rolls eyes*

2006-06-20T08:31:00.000-07:00

isn't it weird...

isn't it weird how perfume can make little boys squeal and squirm. But then when they get older they douse themselves in AXE which really stinks.

But better something than nothing... i guess

Isn't it weird how thoughts can ramble.

2006-06-20T06:32:00.000-07:00

Ain't it funny?

It's kind of weird. I have random songs running through my head. The good thing is: they're from church. The bad thing is: It's only a fragment of them! AAAAAAAAA!!!

Trying to rake my brain for the rest.

For some reason I can't talk to myself. I mean on AIM. I was testing to see if my screenname worked and it didn't. Which was weird, because I know it's the right one and I can add other people and talk to other people and such. But I can't add myself. For some reason I can't understand I chat. I can't wait till i get a new computer someday... then I can download AOL instant messenger. Hopefully its just the Ichat thing. But i'm not sure.

Why do most people have AIM? It kind of stinks. But the thing I most hear is that they have AIM because everyone else has it. Why does everyone else have AIM? It's weird.

IMHO, MSN and Yahoo IM are better. But it has to do with personal preference.

ICQ is another one... instead of a screenname it has a number. So far, not that many people have it.

"There is a strong and perfect plea, a great..."

I must be crazy.

S

Ever feel alone sometimes? I just realized that there isn't that many people who KNOW me. It's my fault.

2006-06-20T06:23:00.000-07:00

I love Lord of the Rings.

2006-06-20T04:49:00.000-07:00

There was something on one of the Christian forums i was on. Asking what you would say to your future husband/wife.

Erm.

I said something but I can't remember much of it.

Oh yeah. I said I would punch him. well... yeah... Say? hmmm... "Are you serious?"

whatever... I'm embarrassed *blushes*

the apostrophe key is working better today. ''''' still kinda funny though.

2006-06-19T19:14:00.000-07:00

Am I boring?

2006-06-19T18:11:00.000-07:00

Well... nothing much.

What do you hate most? A broken space bar or a broken ' key? ok ok, let's say temporarily malfunctioning. :P I guess it would be the space key... I have had that happen before.

My computer's not new anymore... *sigh*

2006-06-19T04:37:00.000-07:00

upon further pondering...

"all the way... you were beside me, even when I couldnt tell..."

thats all...

For some reason my ['] key isn't working. Before it was my SPACE bar. Time to get a new computer... or maybe get it fixed. Heyyy... it still looks new... well kind of. Except the fact that the screen keeps on freezing up.

2006-06-18T19:42:00.000-07:00

I have part of a song that's running through my head...

"you were beside me... even when I couldn't tell..."

if someone could help find the rest of the song that would be great. (hint hint)

2006-06-18T18:00:00.000-07:00

Today... I went to a party. It was fun, I guess. :s

Back to schoolwork. Sometimes I wish I weren't homeschooled. But I'd not want to be public schooled... after I saw what it was like.

Finally got the Ichat to work. I'm not sure if it REALLY works because I haven't talked to anyone with it yet.

2006-06-18T12:17:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!

Welcome to my blog... well lol you can call my Shieldmaiden. I started this blog because I wanted one that was not xanga or myspace... those sound PRETTY suspicious...

First of all, I'm a Christian and I'm TRYING to live up to my faith and trying to be a witness. It sure is hard but I'm going to keep on trying.

Welll... first of all, in case you didn't know, shieldmaidens are characters from the Lord of the Rings. They are trained to fight. And they can fight. Similarly... i call myself a "shieldmaiden" because I'm trained to fight and I hope I can fight against the Devil's schemes. And my sword is the Word of God... do you get it?

Oh yeah... you can post a comment if you want to. But I'm not forcing you. :P